Outside the bus, outside the world

Is sitting in the bus right now, and looking outside the bus station. Suddenly, i realize something, the real world and the world of a lot of choices. Just now, when i was waiting my bus, i saw the bus drivers were running around and keep pulling the people for sales, and right now i still waiting my bus to start is also because they want more people and more sales. Actually, for me the bus is same, same services, same decoration, same furniture, the only different is... the name.

Every field is the same, Maybank, CIMB Bank, EON Bank, Hong Leong Bank, Public Bank... all provides the same services, but everyone still keep compare. For me, i feel more choices made me more difficult to make decision. I just want to use something I always use, is a manner or a habit, is not a matter, just I scare and lazy to make changes.

Working as a permanent is just the third day, but i made my manager disappointed not only once, is again and again... Please... please and please, don't make any mistake again, it made me feel worst and worst...

The pen worth RM5 million

Today, i spent the whole night with a pen which worth RM5 million, did you think it is crazy???!!! And for me, it is just a pen with diamond, that is.... If the guests really have this kind of affordable, why don't they do it on others way like charity?

Although we know that event have a lot of last minutes changes, but we don't really like pop out thing that we don't mention it before, until the end when mistakes come out, there will be our fault. Example, throughout the whole meeting, they don't mention about playing video, but on the day itself, they do this request. Then some more when we do the dry run, they say the video is ok, but when the event, it becames "tak boleh"!!!

Today, is really a bad day for me, i did a lot of mistake, and my manager say my english really... i hope i can have a better english education before, i wish i won't skip any english class when i was young, i do really try to learn english after high school graduate, but i can't get any good result...

The day after tonight

After  tonight, I'm not an intern anymore, the new character of mine is an employee -- a person who by paid from someone. No more mistake, no more excuse, no more life... All i need to do is focus and show my potential...

I wish i can become someone like Steven, I hope i can get my first commission within an half year time, I dream i can have my own house within 5 years time... That all and all, I really need to work harder than other and more creative than others...

Suddenly, I feel i miss penang, i miss my family, i miss my friend, but i know it is the time to grow up... For me, KL is stranger, no friend, no entertainment, no relationship... all i can do is try and try and try...